“I want you to remember,” she whispered in the dark. “What do you want me to remember?” it returned. “Remember ME!” she pleaded, terrified she had already been forgotten, then angry at the recognition that it still mattered to her at all. “All light looks the same to me. It just casts different shadows, and […]
Brushfire
He desperately wanted to hurt her. Not because she deserved it; if anything, the exact opposite was closer to the truth. But it was because he knew she deserved better than what he was willing to give. So instead of being better, he tried to convince her that he was the best she was ever […]
I Should Go To My Room and Think About What I’ve Done
As a kid, and even as an adult, my parents have always tried to steer me in the right direction by giving me examples of how they “screwed up” when they were younger. They would tell me, “My dad/my mom told me so and so and I didn’t listen to him/her and this is what […]
Ghost
“Why are you still here?” “What do you mean ‘still’? I was gone for a while.” “I know. Why didn’t you stay there?” *shrugs* “I didn’t want you to forget about me.” “You know that’s cruel, right?” “Yes.” “And you don’t care?” “No.”
Our own little worlds
Life doesn’t pick and choose individually the people it wants to fuck over. Life. Just. Happens. There is no personal vendetta against you by the universe. You are too insignificant. You control what you can, and you deal with the consequences of what you cannot. When you feel like the whole world is against you, […]
Unwelcome Walking Partner
Tonight, I went on a walk with sadness. Well actually, it was a walk with my Peachy girl because she refused to take no for an answer tonight, but sadness came along for at least half of our journey. I had to wait until the sun set and the temperature lowered to a cool 102 […]
Tangled Christmas Lights
I’ve been wanting to write; the need is there, but the content has been hiding. Actually, that’s not true, as my mind is a never-ending swirl of thoughts competing for space at the forefront. The problem isn’t a lack of subjects I want to write about about. Instead it’s an overwhelming abundance of them that […]
The Purpose of Emotions
“Why are you even here?!” I asked Doubt, angrily. “What have you ever done for me besides make me hate myself?” “I made you strive for Confidence,” Doubt replied. “And you, Anger, what about you? What have YOU ever done for me besides steal precious time?” Anger replied, truthfully, “I made you appreciate Peace.” I […]
When Storms Collide
It’s almost 4 a.m. This is not a time I’m usually awake, as of late, but I woke up from a dream I can’t remember and I haven’t been able to fall back to sleep. The house is quiet and still, but I’m not searching for you this morning. I haven’t been for days. I […]
Life Is Just Better With You
Yesterday, after many, many months (close to a year, honestly), I spent several hours with one of my best friends. I cannot adequately express how much I appreciated and enjoyed that time with her. I’ve missed her so, so much and have a lot of sadness and regret over the time lost with her. It […]
